Don’t do sadness

So maybe
I should be some kind of laundry line.
Hang their things on me
And I will swing, I’m dry.
You just wave in the sun
Through the afternoon
And then see
They come to set you free
Beneath the rising moon…

Right now, I’m not like the wind freely blowing at all; I’m staked out and firmly tied in place by things I chose to do. Work – home – school – church – and my self-imposed limit of 2-events-on-weeknights-only. Staying put, yet flapping in the breeze with a looong laundry list of things to attend to: thesis, books, thesis, writing, thesis, coaching, thesis, research, thesis, darlings, thesis, worksheets, thesis, assessments, thesis, errands, thesis, chores, thesis, hugs, thesis… you get the gist.

Not that I’m complaining. To be honest, I do miss being on the road and the exciting uncertainty of the first half of 2010. This quarter though, I’m beginning to appreciate that there is some sort of comfort in routine. Surprisingly, I now possess a certain calm happiness that only rest (and some occasional bouncing off the walls to expend wanderlust) can bring. After all, God has answered my prayer: I have enough solitude to keep me productive and enough company to keep me sane.

So what’s the point of this entry?

First, I just had to write something non-thesis related since I was told to “Just do it… Produce something.” The unforeseen yet welcome consequence of being part of a bible study for writers.

Second, Don’t Do Sadness from Spring Awakening is my song of the moment because, finally, after several months of moping, I simply refuse to do sadness anymore.

Awful sweet to be a little butterfly
just winging over things
and nothing deep inside.
Nothing going going wild in you,
you know,
you’re slowing by the riverside
or floating high and blue.

Or maybe cool
to be a little summer wind
like once through everything
and then away again.
With the taste of dust
in your mouth all day
but no need to know
like sadness
you just sail away.

Cause you know,
I don’t do sadness
not even a little bit.
Just don’t need it in my life
don’t want any part of it.
I don’t do sadness,
hey I’ve done my time
looking back on it all
then it blows my mind,
I don’t do sadness
so been there.
Don’t do sadness
just don’t care.

Yes, I’m done with sadness. But I still care.