Extremes, here I go again. When opportunity knocks, either I’m impulsive or I’m indecisive.
When I’m impulsive, oppotunity barely has time to darken my doorwayÂ before I slam the door open and drag it screaming and kicking inside.
But when I’m indecisive, like right now… nuninuninuninuni.
Why? Because it justÂ seems too good to be true. Which made me doubt myself. Which made me freeze. Which made me do a national survey of what I should do next. Which led a lot of my friends to rebuke me, both gently and not-so-gently.
Why again? Because I want it all. I don’t want to give up a single minute of my uber-planned, overflowing, hyperbooked schedule. I’ve gotten very comfortable in my cocoon of actvities and groups and work and classes and papers. Stuffy, but safe. And I do not want to burn any more bridges.
Why finally? Because I’m still not that good at that “Trust and Obey” thing. Sad but true.
Time to learn, then.
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity but a spirit of power and love and self-control.”
2 Timothy 1:7