I think I have an attention deificit problem. In English: I can’t wait.
I start fidgeting if made to sit still for more than 15 minutes, or talk to my seatmate, or doodle, or all three. I raise my hand in class even before the teacher has finished asking the question. I peek during those exams that say “Do not open the booklet unless your facilitator has given the signal.” I usually open gifts immediately upon receiving them (in the hopes that they are edible and thus must be saved from spoiling). I hover when people cook, then consume the food in around 5 minutes flat.
The only times I can be still while waiting is when travelling (I don’t have much of a choice, jumping off a plane is suicidal) or when I’m reading. Uh… then again, I often look at the last few pages to see if the book is worth my time.
But now I have to. Wait, that is. For something to happen. For people to come or go. For plans to come into being. For the next step to be revealed.
Stop grabbing opportunities just because they are there. Stop impulse-everything: shopping, eating, sleeping, deciding. Keep quiet and wait for all the facts. Keep faith, let go, and let God.
I need to learn how to wait…Wait until I am ready. Wait until it is the perfect time.
Because God has something great in store.
“For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay.” Habakkuk 2:3