“But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
Â Another month gone so fast. The story of my life the past year: time flying past and me chasing hard after it with a broken butterfly net. Don’t ask me why, that’s just the image that came to my mind as I write this. Given my current state of bewilderment, here come the inevitable lists:
What I have learned in 31 days:
1. I need to focus. Multitasking is now a no-no for me. I have spread myself too thinly the past year, that is why I need to decide which thing to prioritize. And ONLY ONE (emphasis to self).
2. Feelings are deceptive. So I must not trust my heart.; it’s gotten me into enough trouble already.
3. Rationalization can only get me so far. One day, I have to summon enough faith and courage to just go ahead and jump into the unknown.
4. Friends are for keeps. Even when they leave or are left behind.
5. Birds of a feather
are the same bird flock together.Â More specifically, you attract people like yourself. On a more utiliarian note, stay close to people you want to be like… for inspiration.
6. Quitting is not synonymous with failure. Some things I have to be let go off so I can focus on what’s important. But I have to finish what I started before I can move on.
7. Mental resolve is needed for happiness. I choose to be happy. No matter what. Caveat: the effect of positive thinking is limited.
8. Ministry is the outpouring of a grateful heart. And no one is indispensable to Kingdom work.
9. Determining your calling is tricky. It does not always mean doing what I’m best at, or what I enjoy. It is definitely not conforming to people’s expectations, social norms or public approval. It is sometimes easy and often difficult. It may mean deciding which of two or more choices, all good, is the best thing to do. Calling changes with time, since people and their contexts change. One thing I’m sure about: once I know it, I’ll have peace.
10. And I also now know one of the “who’s” I want to be when I grow up. =)
Questions that I have not yet figured out the answer to:
1. Go or stay?
2. Either or both?
4. Which one? (again, ONLY ONE!)
5. Where do I begin?
And my song for February:
Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I’m your friend
You are my desireNo one else will do
Cause nothing else can take your place
To feel the warmth of your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to you
Youâ€™re all I want
Youâ€™re all I’ve ever needed
Youâ€™re all I want
Help me know you are near